Bonjour :) i’m not the person you think i am. Or the person i pretend to be.For the most part, i’m so unhappy i can hardly breathe. Somewhere along the lines, everything in my life fell apart. In a blur of self hatred and sadness, i lost who i was. Depression is a big part of me,everyday im fighting for my life.
But i don’t know why. wow. I’m completely alone, trying so desperately to put the pieces of me back together, and i’ll tell you a secret- i’m too tired,and i want to give up. ive come to the conclusion that i am completley hollow. not only do i not really know how to feel emotions, but i don’t know how to express them properley. its almost like someone has taken my voice away.i communicate by slicing myself to ribbons or swallowing shitloads of pills. silly really, because a majority of the time nobody even knows.ive kept myself a secret for years.
i find it comforting to suffer in silence. and it kills me. Im really selling myself aren’t i? Enough of the darkness. Time for some useless information :) im completley terrified of the dark..
I really wish i was Khloe Kardashian,wow, im the opposite of her. I’m fat- and i hate it. I’m repulsive- i hate that too. But its
okay guys, i’m saving for surgery so watch this space :’) If you give me a long hug, i shall love you forever. I dont really have favourite things, in any context. Be it colours or places. Because i always feel mean, like im leaving the other options out,and making them feel bad.tralalala. if youve bothered to read this,heres a piece of my broken heart.stick in in your pocket..or the bin. adios wonderful people <3
